The Light in the Dark
by: D. M. Dore
Verse 1:
Wear me down and numb my mind
so that I can find a way to sleep tonight.
A moment’s peace, no thoughts to cease
this hope I’m clinging to,
this life is fading, oh…
Chorus:
I’m
searching for oblivion
in the darkness creeping in
while my doubt keep closing in
on me.
And, still I wait for sleep to take
me in tonight
So that I might find
my way back into light.
Verse 2:
Old demons are circling. Mistakes and growing shame
are driving me insane, I just can’t take this pain.
I’m kept in chains, held down in this place
of broken dreams.
There’s no hope in me.
Chorus:
I’m
searching for oblivion
in the darkness creeping in
while my doubt keep closing in
on me.
And, still I wait for sleep to take
me in tonight
so that I might find
my way back into light.
Verse 3:
It steals my breath, a pressure on my chest
that’s choking me. My end is all I see.
My arms are trembling, but I won’t give in
until I bleed.
This is all one me.
Chorus:
I’m
searching for oblivion
in the darkness creeping in
while my doubt keep closing in
on me.
And, still I wait for sleep to take
me in tonight
so that I might find
my way back into light.
End:
My will, will soldier on
forcing back these thoughts
weighing down
on me.
A moment’s peace is all I need
so, please, let me sleep.
Because, see in my sleep,
safe within my dreams
the light, it waits for me,
And there I’ll find
my way back,
back into light.
Ain’t the Same Me
Verse 1:
Sure, my life used to be happy,
dancing under the arms of trees,
laughter filling up my lungs,
and his love rushing over me, but
that’s all changed because he’s walked away,
stealing the sun, all rainbows,
and the shooting stars
from out of my blue skies.
I was left to stand in the dark.
Chorus:
They can all say:
she ain’t ever gunna be the same,
too many shadows hiding in her eyes now,
heart barely beating, how
a shell’s what’s left, she’s been broken.
Baby, they don’t know what they’re about.
They haven’t seen the real me yet,
she’s just waiting to break out of this hell.
Verse 2:
True, it’s easy to see
I am not that silly, blind girl I used to be.
The curtains have been ripped open
to the truth he kept hidden, but that’s okay.
And I might have cried
a million tears on that first night,
but these eyes of mine are dry now,
and this heart of mine has hardened,
I’m stronger than I ever was.
Chorus:
They can all say:
she ain’t ever gunna be the same,
too many shadows hiding in her eyes now,
heart barely beating, how
a shell’s what’s left, she is just a mess.
Baby, they are wrong,
can’t see passed the mask he made me wear.
Behind it, I’m still breathing, and I’ll break free.
Verse 3:
I will stand tall as I face it all.
There’s more to me than just his love.
I ain’t ever gunna be
just resting on my knees begging
“Come back” to that heartless man.
I found the real me again,
the one I once let him drown.
I ain’t ever gunna return to that pathetic girl
who believed in his pretty lies, and
Chorus:
They can all say:
she ain’t ever gunna be the same,
too many shadows hiding in her eyes now,
heart barely beating, how
a shell’s what’s left, her light’s forever gone.
Baby, they don’t know what they’re about.
All I need is a moment to catch my breath,
then I will be free again.
End:
Ya, he might have stolen the sun,
but the dark I’ve never feared,
and my new home might be made there
until I find the light and chase away
those shadows hiding in my eyes.
But I ain’t ever gunna be the same,
The same young girl I was back then.
And that’s okay, because I am stronger now,
oh baby now that I am free,
and now that I’ve found me again.
Girl In This World
Bridge:
Oh it’s damn near impossible
being a girl in this world
where perfection is expected.
No flaws, nor scars, allowed to be seen,
hide them all away, buried down, way beneath.
Don’t let anyone see you’re not the version
of everything they have deemed you need to be.
Chorus:
Ladies, to all of them, say screw it.
Be yourself, you know you can do it.
Ignore their calls,
slap demands in the face, for
they will never understand
just what it’s like
being a girl in this contradicting world.
Verse 1:
Have dark skin got to lighten it.
Pale and fair, where’s your tan girl?
Your eyes are small, learn to widen
with clever strokes of eye make-up.
If you wear glasses gotta get contacts,
yet fake glasses are considered fashion.
We are assaulted constantly
by changing orders on how to be,
or else we’ll be nothing
(Chorus)
Verse 2:
Can’t be:
too tall, too short, too skinny or fat,
too slender, to curvy, too busty or flat.
They want us to be pretty Barbie dolls
with the natural look,
such is a lie created by
layers of smeared on make-up.
They desire the sultry woman:
smokey eyes and blood-red lips,
then call us sluts, say we’re easy.
Try and make some sense out of that.
If you dress buttoned up you are
ugly and mannish, but show off some skin
and you are a whore, tarnished image.
(Chorus)
Verse 3:
They can’t decide what it is that they prefer,
the angel: all innocence and sweet,
or desire’s slave girl just waiting to serve,
expecting you to somehow be both.
If shy and timid: speak up, make noise.
Come on baby, raise your voice.
But, now, don’t be too outspoken,
no one wants to hear your opinion,
so make sure to zip it, act dumb,
no one cares what you have to say.
(Chorus)
(Bridge)
End:
Oh they want the angel all dressed in red,
pure and sweet but wild in bed.
The tomboy type who walks in heels high,
all the while wishing for
the ultra-feminine girl who’s independent,
though not too much or she’s playing at being a man.
They can’t choose or decide,
they’ll never make up their minds,
because they will always want what you are not.
You’ve got to tell them to screw it,
Who cares what they think,
let them judge and label, make demands,
we will just ignore.
Keeping being true to you
You are the one who matters.
They’ll never understand what’s like to be
a girl living in this demanding world.
June 16 2014
Shades In-between
Verse 1:
Inside every lie is a seed of truth,
an honesty better off hidden,
for if unleashed it can cause
a thousand hearts to break.
So, we keep it buried
or drape it in sarcasm and distaste,
hoping no one will hear its screams.
Chorus:
Every coin has second side,
night will always follow day,
and good can never be
without bad standing in the way.
So why do we believe
there are no shades in-between?
Verse 2:
At the heart of an insult
there might be envy or lust waiting.
The desire to have what another holds,
because we all know
everything seems better
on the other side of the fence.
We are never happy
with what we hold in our hands.
Chorus:
Every coin has second side,
night will always follow day,
and good can never be
without bad standing in the way.
So why do we believe
there are no shades in-between?
Verse 3:
Behind a smile you might find
a person broken inside,
barely hanging on
suffocating under
the weight of their self-hate.
As that smile shines bright,
hiding the truth from our eyes,
leaving us to believe
that they are truly happy.
Chorus:
Every coin has second side,
night will always follow day,
and good can never be
without bad standing in the way.
So why do we believe
there are no shades in-between?
End:
There is more than what we see,
so much is hiding just beneath
the obvious.
If only we took the time,
if only we cared enough to see,
the truth found inside the shades,
the truth that hides in the between,
the in-between.
Listen Cupid
Chorus:
Cupid, what were you thinking,
shooting me with your love-dart?
I’m not looking for love,
thought I told you that right from the start.
Verse 1:
Too many ways for it to turn sour,
leaving me in pain,
why did you have to abuse your power?
No, I’m no coward,
hiding under covers in my bed,
just want to be careful.
“Stay away”, is what I had said.
Chorus:
Cupid, what were you thinking,
shooting me with your love-dart?
I’m not looking for love,
thought I told you that right from the start.
Verse 2:
Why didn’t you listen
when I said now was not the time
for foolish things like these endless love games?
I cannot forgive you for this crime.
Unforgivable, you got me
thinking he’s the one,
but we both know how this will end:
me crying, him saying he is done.
Chorus:
Cupid, what were you thinking,
shooting me with your love-dart?
I’m not looking for love,
thought I told you that right from the start.
Verse 3:
Cupid, next time will you just please,
listen close to what I say?
I’m not lying when I claim
all I want is to be free.
Love brings nothing but tears and pain,
so please cupid, give me space.
Chorus:
Cupid, what were you thinking,
shooting me with your love-dart?
I’m not looking for love,
thought I told you that right from the start.
Oh Cupid, what were you thinking?
(When will you start listening)
Stop shooting me,
shooting me with your love dart.
(Can’t you see I just want to be me and free?)
I’m not looking for love (don’t want those love games)
Thought I told, told you from the start.
Cupid will you please go, just go,
(stop hurting my soul)
‘cause I’m not looking for love.
*Image found on zazzle.com
More to Me
Verse one:
I'm more than a simple girl,
I make mistakes and I get hurt.
Sometimes I cry no reasons why,
needing to release feels warring inside my mind.
And there are days, hanging out with the girls,
we devour sweets and sob over loves gone wrong,
preferring and enjoying flicks where love will always win
Over the mess of violence and collisions.
But, this is just a piece of me.
Chorus:
Don’t think, one second, that I'm one sided,
that there’s just one version
of who this girl can be.
Behind these eyes and deep inside this mind,
a thousand stories and secrets lie.
Lifting me up when days grow dark,
this heart of mine is bursting, see,
to be a bit of everything.
There is so much more to me
than the clothes I wear and the words I speak.
Verse two:
Ya, and some days I might play sports
then hang out with the boys,
bruised and cut from playing rough,
stuff my face with tons of junk,
and never worry about my weight
or stick to diets that I hate.
Video games, I love them all,
and nothing is better than comic reads,
of super heroes kicking ass.
DC, Marvel, I adore them all.
Yes, I can be the princess and still the geek.
Chorus:
Don’t think, one second, that I'm one sided,
that there’s just one version
of who this girl can be.
Behind these eyes and deep inside this mind,
a thousand stories and secrets lie.
Lifting me up when days grow dark,
this heart of mine is bursting, see,
to be a bit of everything.
There is so much more to me
than the clothes I wear and the words I speak.
Verse Three:
Sometimes I play the dork,
laugh hysterically just to see
what feels like to be completely
at ease and free,
to not give a damn to the whispers
or to the stares,
to people who judge if I act weird.
Acting silly, singing out loud, and dancing around,
tripping over my feet not caring how I seem
to anyone who is not me
for there are endless ways for me to be.
Chorus:
Don’t think, one second, that I'm one sided,
that there’s just one version
of who this girl can be.
Behind these eyes and deep inside this mind,
a thousand stories and secrets lie.
Lifting me up when days grow dark,
this heart of mine is bursting, see,
to be a bit of everything.
There is so much more to me
than the clothes I wear and the words I speak.
Oh, there is so much more to me,
so many sides,
you might think you've seen them all
turn around, find you are wrong.
You will never see
how many shades
there are of me.
Touched My Hand
Verse 1:
For so long I thought
the good days were all gone,
this tunnel everlasting,
depression my only companion.
I grew accustomed to the cold,
feeling nothing,
I was numb, then…
Chorus:
You touched my hand,
pulled me to my feet and held me close.
Kissed my lips with tenderness.
The sun woke up,
now I am standing in the light
with you by my side, my love.
Verse 2:
I never had the chance
to build up walls to protect,
to keep you out, out of my heart,
for fear you might break it.
Well, it’s resting in your hands now,
please handle me with care.
You have all of me.
Chorus:
You touched my hand,
pulled me to my feet and held me close.
Kissed my lips with tenderness.
The sun woke up,
now I am standing in the light
with you by my side, my love.
Verse 3:
I’m so glad you caught me by surprise,
didn’t let me sabotage
my chance happiness.
For too long I lived afraid
to trust my heart, to love,
so I hid in the dark all alone.
But now I see, the light has found me,
because
Chorus:
You touched my hand,
pulled me to my feet and held me close.
Kissed my lips with tenderness.
The sun woke up,
now I am standing in the light
with you by my side, my love.
Oh, my heart
you touched my hand.
Now I know love again.
All because
you touched my hand.
Back to Me
Verse 1:
Pain is what makes you, it does not break you,
Baby they were so wrong,
And all that I was has gone (forever).
What remains, this corpse you see,
Is without a soul and just a shell.
It sickens me that
These fragile bones are my own.
How did I let it get to this?
Chorus:
But I promise one day
I will find my voice and say
I’ve had enough of living
This half life.
I will begin to fight
When my eyes meet the light
Leading the way
Back to me.
Verse 2:
He said I was the one
And I let the lie become my truth,
Closing my eyes to avoid
What my heart saw, was screaming,
He was to be
The end of me.
I ignored, naïve in thinking,
He would change his path for me.
Oh how young I seemed then.
Chorus:
But I promise one day
I will find my voice and say
I’ve had enough of living
This half life.
I will begin to fight
When my eyes meet the light
Leading the way
Back to me.
Verse 3:
Now I must accept that I have made this mess,
Allowed him to smash
Me into these tiny little pieces.
I am a broken puzzle
Just waiting to be whole,
But it will only be when I find the strength
To put me back together.
Before I can,
I need to learn how to breathe again.
Chorus: 2X
But I promise one day
I will find my voice and say
I’ve had enough of living
This half life.
I will begin to fight
When my eyes meet the light
Leading the way
Back to me.
Oh baby, now I can finally see
(everything so clearly).
My eyes are opening
(to the truth).
The light has come again
And I'm singing to the sun.
(I’m warm again)
Oh yea I’ve found,
Found the way back to me!
Avalanche
Bridge:
When did it come to this?
When did lies become the truth,
and this broken heart I hold become my own?
Chorus:
And what have I done?
What did I do,
to cause this mess, this avalanche,
that's burying me in self-disgust and heavy regret?
Verse 1
Last thing I remember was saying sorry
to the man I thought I could not love,
seeing his face, so sad and lonely
when I turned my back,
when I walked away.
Chorus:
And what have I done?
What did I do,
to cause this mess, this avalanche,
that's burying me in self-disgust and heavy regret?
Verse 2
He is the one who has moved on
while, here I am, living in the past.
Wondering where it was that I went wrong,
what decision led me off the path
to everlasting happiness.
Chorus:
And what have I done?
What did I do,
to cause this mess, this avalanche,
that's burying me in self-disgust and heavy regret?
Verse Three:
How do I make amends,
clean up the mess I have made?
How do I fill this empty space,
the place where his love used to go?
Bridge:
When did it come to this?
When did lies become the truth,
and this broken heart I hold become my own?
Chorus:
And what have I done?
What did I do,
to cause this mess, this avalanche,
that's burying me in self-disgust and heavy regret?
Can I free myself before it’s too late?
Can I keep living with this pain?
I can't breathe.
I can't see.
This avalanche is breaking,
oh baby it’s breaking me.
*photo found on pinterest.
Love Will Wait
Man:
All I fear is the end is near
Hands held out to guide me dear
To the darkened path
Where my fate’s now clear
As time drifts by
Love forever gone I fear
Woman:
All I feel is this hole in me
Where loss has grown
Taking over me
Lights have darkened
So that I can’t see
When he was stolen
Slipped away from me.
(Chorus) Together:
Dreams, now, are dying
Do you hear them crying?
Hearts have turn into ash
And hope is escaping fast
Torn apart
By a poisoned dart
Our souls, here, lay in shreds
Dripping blood and
weeping dread
Forever gone
Darkness has forever
Eclipsed the sun
Woman:
All I crave is your love to save
The broken mind I lost that day
No warmth to melt this burning ice
Metal chains wrapped tight
Around these writs of mine
Salted drops from my eyes do drip
A face gone pale by death’s cruel grip
A blink he was gone,
And I fall as I come undone.
Man:
All I wish are her lips to kiss
One last time to remind her of
Our lasting love, it will never fade
to hold her close is a dream I’ll keep
watching years and her grief decrease
to see her smile is all I need
to keep me patient as I wait
one day I know, again I will hold her
(Chorus) Together:
Dreams, now, are dying
Do you hear them crying?
Hearts have turn into ash
And hope is escaping fast
Torn apart
By a poisoned dart
Our souls, here, lay in shreds
Dripping blood and
weeping dread
Forever gone
Darkness has forever
Eclipsed the sun
Both:
Soon united
Love never fades
We wait
Time passes
Woman:
There he is, I can see him
He holds his arms out to me
Man:
There she is, she is smiling
Eyes bright as she runs to me
Together:
Love can never fade
By your side, I will stay
Here with you
Once again and forever true
